『Painful』

Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
Tracks mixing : Sony Vegas Pro 13
Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
LIC (instru) : 12FR-160528-00246
LIN (full) : 「598 258 781」 (IA version) ; 「598 269 685」 (Lily version)
IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-160529-000351 (IA ver) ; 12FR-NYN8937-160604-000372 (Lily ver)
Instrumental + sung version (IA ver)
Instrumental + sung version (Lily ver)
Catalog ticket
Album : Wish from the Evil - TRACK 11/16 (IA ver)

Rating : Mature (first class) - M12
Not recommended for people under... : 12
Reason : confusing content, mild violence
Restricted on : (none)

Japanese lyrics

普通の女の子のように幸せな未来に生きることを運命
希望は破壊され、残りの幸福は怒りになりました
多すぎるためこの人生の負傷、復讐のこれらの思考が激化しました
いつか苦しんでいます痛みは永遠に消去されます...

まだ他の人を気にし、素敵に見えたした覚えている
この種は自分はまだ叫んしかし言葉はいつも窒息されている
あなたが私に行っていることは許されない、自分自身を好きではなかった
この拷問は地獄にあなたをもたらすかもしれない耐え難い

普通の女の子のように幸せな未来に生きることを運命
希望は破壊され、残りの幸福は怒りになりました
多すぎるためこの人生の負傷、復讐のこれらの思考が激化しました
いつか苦しんでいます痛みは永遠に消去されます...

静脈の怒りの感情は私のために唯一残っているものです
これは頭の中でこれらの命令や声の自由である
これらの邪悪な精神と戦っは常に各秒で私に屈辱
苦しんでいます痛みは地獄にあなたをもたらすでしょう

前に行ったようにもう幸せな未来を願ってない
私の怒りと決意は、あなたの運命について決定します
誰もがこのひどい体内に叫んで貧しい人々の精神を認識しない
あなたは外観の背後にある慈悲のこの数を見ることができませんか？

Original English text

Fated to live in a happy future as a normal girl
The hopes were destroyed and the remaining happiness turned into rage
Too much wounded because of this life, these thoughts of revenge intensified
Someday the pain I'm suffering from will be erased forever...

I still remember I was caring about others and seemed nice
This kind myself still screaming but the words are always choked
I didn't like myself, what you have done to me is unforgivable
This torture is unbearable and maybe will bring you to hell

Fated to live in a happy future as a normal girl
The hopes were destroyed and the remaining happiness turned into rage
Too much wounded because of this life, these thoughts of revenge intensified
Someday the pain I'm suffering from will be erased forever...

The feeling of rage in the veins is the only remaining thing for me
It could be free of these orders and voices in the head
Struggling against these evil minds always humiliating me at each second
The pain I'm suffering from will bring you to hell

I don't hope anymore a happy future as I did before
My wrath and determination will decide about your fate
Nobody recognizes the poor spirit screaming inside this awful body
Can't you see this few of mercy behind the appearance?

And French adaptation!

Comme n'importe quelle fille, j'étais destinée à vivre un futur empli de joie
Les espoirs ont été détruits et la rage a remplacé le peu de joie qu'il restait en moi
Trop blessée à cause de cette vie, mes pensées de vengeance s'intensifiaient
Un jour la douleur dont je souffrais sera effacée à jamais...

Je me souviens encore quand j'étais si clémente et pleine d'amitié
Cette gentille moi-même qui hurle encore mais dont les mots sont étouffés
Je ne m'aimais pas, mais je ne vous pardonnerai pas ce que vous avez osé me faire
Cette torture est insupportable et vous amènera peut-être en enfer

Comme n'importe quelle fille, j'étais destinée à vivre un futur empli de joie
Les espoirs ont été détruits et la rage a remplacé le peu de joie qu'il restait en moi
Trop blessée à cause de cette vie, mes pensées de vengeance s'intensifiaient
Un jour la douleur dont je souffrais sera effacée à jamais...

Le sentiment de rage coulant dans mes veines est la seule chose qu'il me restait
Il pourrait me libérer de ces ordres et voix qui se répètent dans ma tête inlassablement
Me battant contre ces méchants esprits m'humiliant à chaque seconde qui s'écoulait
La douleur dont je souffre vous emmènera en enfer certainement

Je n'espère plus cet heureux futur comme j'en avais été capable
Ma colère et ma détermination décideront à propos de vos destins
Personne ne reconnaît le pauvre esprit hurlant dans ce corps abominable
Ne voyez-vous pas le peu de pitié derrière cette vision, enfin ?

Explanations...

So this is the 199th original song (already...).
I think Japanese and English speaking people know very well the game that was my inspiration this time... Does "SkullGirls" remind you something? Do you remember the characters? And especially a young girl named Carol, also known as Painwheel? I feel very merciful for this girl...
Before being turned into the monster she looks like now, Carol was a young girl, very caring to others until she got kidnapped and transformed to what she is now by a lab. After you can understand why she is so angry against Valentine and Brain Drain... Being ordered by very mean people, while the little Carol still remains there...
When Carol comes back to her parents, they don't recognize her because of her monster appearance. Because they can't see anymore their daughter as the nice girl she was while she was totally human.
This is a very sad story... And very touching. After, depending of the story you choose in the game, Carol can have a different fate (as the one she becomes a human again). But this one is really focused on Painwheel's story itself.
Title : also a pun between "painful", because of the pain she sometimes feels, especially when she's struggling against the voices in her head, and her other name "Painwheel".
Music : more techno based. That makes a very hard electronica track.