• Anti-Birth


    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170322-00500
    LIN (full) : 「598 588 306」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170324-000620
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 8/16

    Rating : Explicit - E
    Not recommended for people under... : 16
    Reason : yandere content, violence on vulnerable people reference
    Restricted on : piapro (forbidden), Niconico video (explicit warning), YouTube (age restriction), Dailymotion (age restriction), Bilibili (age restriction/explicit warning), Soundcloud (explicit warning)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics





    Original English text

    Being broken in the silence by a painful and threatening thought
    I wanted to forget these words, to live peacefully
    They never have to live in a hell where nobody really loves them
    This suffering is unbearable, shattering my spirit in the darkness

    Fighting against this pain seems to be impossible, whatever the way
    I couldn't think to anything else, tortured by this fear
    Our futures were not seen the same way, going against each other
    This fate was sickening me, hatred began growing inside

    I just wanted to be happy with her, with no other complications in the life
    Without permanently feeling this sensation of unease and confusion
    I'm trying to struggling against this sorrow, hoping to put an end to this nightmare
    But I have no other love to give to anyone else than this woman...

    I don't care anymore about the past and the present, about a collapsing world
    She didn't want to look at me and I'm still prisoner of these destructive thoughts
    I didn't want of this pain anymore, even staying with you remains unbearable
    Maybe this sacrifice won't be vain to save an unloved little being...

    And French adaptation!

    Cassée dans le silence par une douloureuse et menaçante pensée
    Je voulais vivre en paix, ces mots, je voulais les oublier
    Ils n'ont jamais à vivre un enfer où personne ne les aime réellement
    Cette souffrance m'est insupportable, brisant dans l'obscurité mon esprit en fragments

    Combattre contre cette douleur me semble impossible, qu'importe le moyen pour y arriver
    Je ne pouvais penser à rien d'autre, cette peur continuait de me torturer
    Nous ne voyions pas nos futurs de la même manière, se contrant mutuellement
    Ce destin me rendait malade, la haine a commencé à grandir en moi doucement

    Je voulais juste être heureuse avec elle, sans aucune autre complication
    Sans sentir en permanence cette sensation de malaise et de confusion
    J'essaie de lutter contre ce chagrin, espérant que ce cauchemar prenne fin
    Mais cette femme était la seule personne à qui je pouvais donner mon amour sans fin...

    Peu m'importe le présent et le passé désormais, ce monde en train de s'effondrer
    Elle ne voulait pas me regarder et je suis encore prisonnière de ces destructrices pensées
    Je ne voulais plus de cette douleur, même rester avec toi m'insupportait
    Peut-être que ce sacrifice ne saura pas vain pour sauver cette petite vie que personne n'aimait....


    For the story, this is so complicated that I'll rather write a full story about it. Even if I have censored in some places, it still stays rated as "explicit". But... I will do this very very rarely, maybe never again. I had seriously no other idea...
    About the yandere thing, this is actually very mild, and not very clear, but if I set "severe", it's really because of the violence of lyrics... Again, a full story will better explain this than just a paragraph on the blog.
    Music: pads by Toxic Biohazard, lead by Autogun, pluck by Xpand!2, and the Slayer.
    Reprints/covers: if you ever do covers/remixes/reprints, please contact me first for this one with the name of the platforms you want to use, mainly because of the many age restrictions or the explicit warnings to set. I usually don't ask that, but here, it's a more complicated case.

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