• Anti-Birth

    『Anti-Birth』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170322-00500
    LIN (full) : 「598 588 306」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170324-000620
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 8/16

    Rating : Explicit - E
    Not recommended for people under... : 16
    Reason : yandere content, violence on vulnerable people reference
    Restricted on : piapro (forbidden), Niconico video (explicit warning), YouTube (age restriction), Dailymotion (age restriction), Bilibili (age restriction/explicit warning), Soundcloud (explicit warning)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    痛くて脅迫的な思考によって沈黙の中で壊れている
    これらの言葉を忘れて、平和に暮らしたいと思った
    誰も本当に彼らを愛していない地獄に住む必要はない
    この苦しみは耐えられず、暗闇の中で私の精神を粉砕している

    この痛みと戦うことは、どんな方法であれ、不可能と思われる
    この恐怖によって拷問された何か他のものに考えることができなかった
    私たちの未来は同じように見えず、お互いに向かっていた
    この運命は私を傷つけ、憎しみは内部で成長し始めた

    ちょうど人生に他の合併症なしで、彼女に満足したいと思っていた
    不安と混乱のこの感覚を永久に感じることなく
    この悲しみに苦しんで、この悪夢に終止符を打つことを望んでいる
    しかし、他の誰にもこの女性よりも愛することはない...

    過去と現在、崩壊する世界についてはもう気にしない
    彼女は私を見たくはなく、まだこれらの破壊的な思考の囚人です
    この痛みがもう欲しくなく、あなたと一緒にいても耐えられないまま
    多分、この犠牲は無慈悲な小さな存在を救うために無駄ではないでしょう...

    Original English text

    Being broken in the silence by a painful and threatening thought
    I wanted to forget these words, to live peacefully
    They never have to live in a hell where nobody really loves them
    This suffering is unbearable, shattering my spirit in the darkness

    Fighting against this pain seems to be impossible, whatever the way
    I couldn't think to anything else, tortured by this fear
    Our futures were not seen the same way, going against each other
    This fate was sickening me, hatred began growing inside

    I just wanted to be happy with her, with no other complications in the life
    Without permanently feeling this sensation of unease and confusion
    I'm trying to struggling against this sorrow, hoping to put an end to this nightmare
    But I have no other love to give to anyone else than this woman...

    I don't care anymore about the past and the present, about a collapsing world
    She didn't want to look at me and I'm still prisoner of these destructive thoughts
    I didn't want of this pain anymore, even staying with you remains unbearable
    Maybe this sacrifice won't be vain to save an unloved little being...

    And French adaptation!

    Cassée dans le silence par une douloureuse et menaçante pensée
    Je voulais vivre en paix, ces mots, je voulais les oublier
    Ils n'ont jamais à vivre un enfer où personne ne les aime réellement
    Cette souffrance m'est insupportable, brisant dans l'obscurité mon esprit en fragments

    Combattre contre cette douleur me semble impossible, qu'importe le moyen pour y arriver
    Je ne pouvais penser à rien d'autre, cette peur continuait de me torturer
    Nous ne voyions pas nos futurs de la même manière, se contrant mutuellement
    Ce destin me rendait malade, la haine a commencé à grandir en moi doucement

    Je voulais juste être heureuse avec elle, sans aucune autre complication
    Sans sentir en permanence cette sensation de malaise et de confusion
    J'essaie de lutter contre ce chagrin, espérant que ce cauchemar prenne fin
    Mais cette femme était la seule personne à qui je pouvais donner mon amour sans fin...

    Peu m'importe le présent et le passé désormais, ce monde en train de s'effondrer
    Elle ne voulait pas me regarder et je suis encore prisonnière de ces destructrices pensées
    Je ne voulais plus de cette douleur, même rester avec toi m'insupportait
    Peut-être que ce sacrifice ne saura pas vain pour sauver cette petite vie que personne n'aimait....

    Explanations...

    For the story, this is so complicated that I'll rather write a full story about it. Even if I have censored in some places, it still stays rated as "explicit". But... I will do this very very rarely, maybe never again. I had seriously no other idea...
    About the yandere thing, this is actually very mild, and not very clear, but if I set "severe", it's really because of the violence of lyrics... Again, a full story will better explain this than just a paragraph on the blog.
    Music: pads by Toxic Biohazard, lead by Autogun, pluck by Xpand!2, and the Slayer.
    Reprints/covers: if you ever do covers/remixes/reprints, please contact me first for this one with the name of the platforms you want to use, mainly because of the many age restrictions or the explicit warnings to set. I usually don't ask that, but here, it's a more complicated case.


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