• 『Collapse』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170327-00501
    LIN (full) : 「598 594 505」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170329-000621
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Night Angels - TRACK 14/18

    Rating : Mature (first class) - M12
    Not recommended for people under... : 12
    Reason : confusing content
    Restricted on : (none)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    間違った解釈の完全な夢の単なる幻想
    空の高さに加わりたいと思っていたが、これらの翼は壊れている
    残酷な嘘つきの言葉によって傷ついた、闇に落ちている
    この深い痛みを治すことはできない、最終的に完全に倒れるまで...

    誰も私の存在を許していない、負傷した人の考えさえも許されない
    これらの感情は消えている、この寒い場所で一人でいるように感じている
    私自身の過去の痕跡を残すことなくやや消えていく
    世界を取り巻く巨大な沈黙は、これらの文章を飲み込んでいる

    間違った解釈の完全な夢の単なる幻想
    空の高さに加わりたいと思っていたが、これらの翼は壊れている
    残酷な嘘つきの言葉によって傷ついた、闇に落ちている
    この深い痛みを治すことはできない、最終的に完全に倒れるまで...

    間違った解釈の完全な夢の単なる幻想
    空の高さに加わりたいと思っていたが、これらの翼は壊れている
    残酷な嘘つきの言葉によって傷ついた、闇に落ちている
    この深い痛みを治すことはできない、最終的に完全に倒れるまで

    これらの質問は消去され、実際には実際に起こったことはない
    全てがうまくいった、最終的に完全に倒れた瞬間まで...

    Original English text

    Only a mere illusion in a dream full of mistaken interpretations
    I wanted to join the highs of the sky, but these wings are broken
    I'm falling into the darkness, wounded by the words of the cruel liars
    Nothing can heal this deep pain, until I finally and totally collapse...

    Nobody forgave my existence, not even the thoughts of a wounded person
    These feelings are vanishing, I feel alone in this cold place
    Slightly disappearing without leaving a trace of my own past
    The immense silence surrounding the world is swallowing these sentences

    Only a mere illusion in a dream full of mistaken interpretations
    I wanted to join the highs of the sky, but these wings are broken
    I'm falling into the darkness, wounded by the words of the cruel liars
    Nothing can heal this deep pain, until I finally and totally collapse...

    Only a mere illusion in a dream full of mistaken interpretations
    I wanted to join the highs of the sky, but these wings are broken
    I'm falling into the darkness, wounded by the words of the cruel liars
    Nothing can heal this deep pain, until I finally and totally collapse

    These questions will be erased and none of this actually really happened
    Everything was fine until the moment I finally and totally collapsed...

    And French adaptation!

    Rien de plus qu'une vulgaire illusion dans un rêve rempli d'interprétations erronées
    Je voulais rejoindre les hauteurs du ciel, mais mes ailes se sont brisées
    Blessée par les mots des menteurs cruels, je tombe dans l'obscurité
    Personne ne peut soigner cette profonde douleur, jusqu'à finalement et totalement m'effondrer...

    Personne n'a pardonné mon existence, ni même les pensées d'une personne blessée
    Ces sentiments s'évanouissent, seule dans cet endroit glacé
    Je disparais lentement sans laisser de traces de mon passé
    L'immense silence qui entoure le monde avale ces paroles

    Rien de plus qu'une vulgaire illusion dans un rêve rempli d'interprétations erronées
    Je voulais rejoindre les hauteurs du ciel, mais mes ailes se sont brisées
    Blessée par les mots des menteurs cruels, je tombe dans l'obscurité
    Personne ne peut soigner cette profonde douleur, jusqu'à finalement et totalement m'effondrer...

    Rien de plus qu'une vulgaire illusion dans un rêve rempli d'interprétations erronées
    Je voulais rejoindre les hauteurs du ciel, mais mes ailes se sont brisées
    Blessée par les mots des menteurs cruels, je tombe dans l'obscurité
    Personne ne peut soigner cette profonde douleur, jusqu'à finalement et totalement m'effondrer

    Ces questions seront effacées et rien de tout ceci ne sera jamais arrivé
    Tout allait bien jusqu'au mot où je me suis finalement et totalement effondrée...

    Explanations...

    And happy birthday Nyui! Ah, I wish I can use her more than this... The last song was such a failure, but now, better quality in general. And for once, I was less violent than on the song I aired the other day...
    Music: pads by Toxic Biohazard, lead and chords by Xpand!2. The track is cold and quite airy in the same time.
    About the rendering, this time, I was the one who made it, with the VCV version (just on another comp than my main one).


  • Two years ago, exactly on a March 26th, I aired the first official song "Regan" as UTAU producer. And now, do you see where we are all? We went so far away...

    Hello, Nynthixia there.

    I can't believe time is flying so fast. 333 songs aired during 2 full years... (This is not a joke, there are really 333 originals that were composed between March 26th 2015 and today)

    Of course I want to continue, of course I won't stop working. So... Thanks everyone. Whoever you are, Vocaloid producer, UTAU producer, users of these softwares, or the nice people on Twitter... Thanks!!!

     

    Other new for the files recovery. I don't have the hard drive yet. I don't know exactly where the software in charge of that is at, even if I think it's still near the production files, and I don't have an exact date of when I'll get it again.
    But, I could get some other files which had some copies on other websites. These are only vsqx or ust files, and these are the files that have been recovered:

    "Dead Fates": ust and vsqx
    "Artemisia": vsqx
    "JIVANIA": ust and vsqx

    Other files that are still available but were recovered before:

    "Regan": two parts of the ust files (not complete)
    "White Dress": ust
    "Eve": flp

    If I have some news on tomorrow evening, I'll tell you. Speaking of which, there are now 7 hours of difference between Japan and France, so when it's midnight at my home, it's 7 AM for Japanese people. Be careful! (Until mid-October)

    And I was thinking, on next Saturday, it's the April 1st... Which means jokes!
    So what I'll do for Saturday is that I'll do a news post with several points. All of these points will be 100% accurate, but one another will be total fake. And when it will be aired, you can try and guess (on Twitter, maybe easier) what point is the fake one. What are you thinking about it? (^-^)
    (Promised, this news is accurate)

    Soon I'll air the MAYU ver of "Stitches", that is really good, so I think you'll enjoy it as well!

    Nynthixia


  • 『Anti-Birth』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170322-00500
    LIN (full) : 「598 588 306」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170324-000620
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Running and Ailing - TRACK 8/16

    Rating : Explicit - E
    Not recommended for people under... : 16
    Reason : yandere content, violence on vulnerable people reference
    Restricted on : piapro (forbidden), Niconico video (explicit warning), YouTube (age restriction), Dailymotion (age restriction), Bilibili (age restriction/explicit warning), Soundcloud (explicit warning)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    痛くて脅迫的な思考によって沈黙の中で壊れている
    これらの言葉を忘れて、平和に暮らしたいと思った
    誰も本当に彼らを愛していない地獄に住む必要はない
    この苦しみは耐えられず、暗闇の中で私の精神を粉砕している

    この痛みと戦うことは、どんな方法であれ、不可能と思われる
    この恐怖によって拷問された何か他のものに考えることができなかった
    私たちの未来は同じように見えず、お互いに向かっていた
    この運命は私を傷つけ、憎しみは内部で成長し始めた

    ちょうど人生に他の合併症なしで、彼女に満足したいと思っていた
    不安と混乱のこの感覚を永久に感じることなく
    この悲しみに苦しんで、この悪夢に終止符を打つことを望んでいる
    しかし、他の誰にもこの女性よりも愛することはない...

    過去と現在、崩壊する世界についてはもう気にしない
    彼女は私を見たくはなく、まだこれらの破壊的な思考の囚人です
    この痛みがもう欲しくなく、あなたと一緒にいても耐えられないまま
    多分、この犠牲は無慈悲な小さな存在を救うために無駄ではないでしょう...

    Original English text

    Being broken in the silence by a painful and threatening thought
    I wanted to forget these words, to live peacefully
    They never have to live in a hell where nobody really loves them
    This suffering is unbearable, shattering my spirit in the darkness

    Fighting against this pain seems to be impossible, whatever the way
    I couldn't think to anything else, tortured by this fear
    Our futures were not seen the same way, going against each other
    This fate was sickening me, hatred began growing inside

    I just wanted to be happy with her, with no other complications in the life
    Without permanently feeling this sensation of unease and confusion
    I'm trying to struggling against this sorrow, hoping to put an end to this nightmare
    But I have no other love to give to anyone else than this woman...

    I don't care anymore about the past and the present, about a collapsing world
    She didn't want to look at me and I'm still prisoner of these destructive thoughts
    I didn't want of this pain anymore, even staying with you remains unbearable
    Maybe this sacrifice won't be vain to save an unloved little being...

    And French adaptation!

    Cassée dans le silence par une douloureuse et menaçante pensée
    Je voulais vivre en paix, ces mots, je voulais les oublier
    Ils n'ont jamais à vivre un enfer où personne ne les aime réellement
    Cette souffrance m'est insupportable, brisant dans l'obscurité mon esprit en fragments

    Combattre contre cette douleur me semble impossible, qu'importe le moyen pour y arriver
    Je ne pouvais penser à rien d'autre, cette peur continuait de me torturer
    Nous ne voyions pas nos futurs de la même manière, se contrant mutuellement
    Ce destin me rendait malade, la haine a commencé à grandir en moi doucement

    Je voulais juste être heureuse avec elle, sans aucune autre complication
    Sans sentir en permanence cette sensation de malaise et de confusion
    J'essaie de lutter contre ce chagrin, espérant que ce cauchemar prenne fin
    Mais cette femme était la seule personne à qui je pouvais donner mon amour sans fin...

    Peu m'importe le présent et le passé désormais, ce monde en train de s'effondrer
    Elle ne voulait pas me regarder et je suis encore prisonnière de ces destructrices pensées
    Je ne voulais plus de cette douleur, même rester avec toi m'insupportait
    Peut-être que ce sacrifice ne saura pas vain pour sauver cette petite vie que personne n'aimait....

    Explanations...

    For the story, this is so complicated that I'll rather write a full story about it. Even if I have censored in some places, it still stays rated as "explicit". But... I will do this very very rarely, maybe never again. I had seriously no other idea...
    About the yandere thing, this is actually very mild, and not very clear, but if I set "severe", it's really because of the violence of lyrics... Again, a full story will better explain this than just a paragraph on the blog.
    Music: pads by Toxic Biohazard, lead by Autogun, pluck by Xpand!2, and the Slayer.
    Reprints/covers: if you ever do covers/remixes/reprints, please contact me first for this one with the name of the platforms you want to use, mainly because of the many age restrictions or the explicit warnings to set. I usually don't ask that, but here, it's a more complicated case.


  • 『Stitches』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170320-00499
    LIN (full) : 「598 585 225」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170321-000618
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Night Angels - TRACK 1/18 (Tei) 16/18 (MAYU)

    Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
    Not recommended for people under... : 14
    Reason : yandere content
    Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    空気が内部から燃えているので、もはや呼吸できない
    傷は治癒するには深すぎ、時間とともに悪化し続けている
    あまりにも苦しんでいる、私の心は意識で引き裂かれている
    もう何も感じていなかったように、ただの空の体で

    あなたが最後に拒否したとしても、まだ強い感情を持っていた
    この若い男の顔を見るまで、影の後ろに放棄された
    あなたが何も言わずに私を去ったならば、彼の魅力のためだったの?
    痛い針としてのこの真実は、残りの考えを破壊している

    空気が内部から燃えているので、もはや呼吸できない
    傷は治癒するには深すぎ、時間とともに悪化し続けている
    あまりにも苦しんでいる、私の心は意識で引き裂かれている
    もう何も感じていなかったように、ただの空の体で

    この壊れた心、この破滅した腐った精神を修復することはできない
    あなたが同じ運命にどちらかを逃れることができない、あなたを忘れることはできない
    あなたの愛が戻った場合は、多分この痛みから癒されるの?
    その後、私はあなたが崇拝する唯一の人物であるだろうことを約束して...

    Original English text

    The air is burning from the inside, I can't even breathe anymore
    The wounds are too deep to be healed, are keeping worsening with the time
    I have suffered too much, my heart is being torn off with the consciousness
    As I wasn't feeling anything anymore, with just an empty body

    I still had these strong feelings, even if you finally rejected them
    Abandoned behind the shadows, until seeing the face of this young man
    If you have left me without saying anything, was it because of his charms?
    This truth as a painful needle are destroying any thoughts remaining

    The air is burning from the inside, I can't even breathe anymore
    The wounds are too deep to be healed, are keeping worsening with the time
    I have suffered too much, my heart is being torn off with the consciousness
    As I wasn't feeling anything anymore, with just an empty body

    Nothing can repair this broken heart, this shattered and rotten spirit
    I can't forget you, you can't escape either to the same fate
    If your love returns back, maybe I will be healed from this pain?
    Then promise that I'll be the only person you will adore...

    And French adaptation!

    L'air brûlant à l'intérieur, je ne peux plus respirer
    Les blessures, trop profondes pour être soignées, avec le temps empirent
    J'ai trop souffert, mon cœur avec ma conscience est déchiré
    Avec un corps vide, comme si je ne pouvais plus rien ressentir

    J'avais encore ces forts sentiments, même si tu les as finalement rejetés
    Jusqu'à voir le visage de ce jeune homme, derrière les ombres j'ai été abandonnée
    Si tu m'avais laissée sans rien me dire, serait-ce parce qu'il t'a charmée ?
    Cette vérité comme une aiguille détruisant péniblement toutes mes pensées

    L'air brûlant à l'intérieur, je ne peux plus respirer
    Les blessures, trop profondes pour être soignées, avec le temps empirent
    J'ai trop souffert, mon cœur avec ma conscience est déchiré
    Avec un corps vide, comme si je ne pouvais plus rien ressentir

    Rien ne peut réparer cet esprit pourri et cassé, ni même mon cœur
    Je ne peux pas t'oublier, et de ce même destin tu ne peux t'échapper
    Si ton amour revenait, serait-je enfin guérie de cette douleur ?
    Alors promets-moi que je serai la seule personne que tu puisses aimer...

    Explanations...

    (Version with MAYU will be uploaded soon, I noticed she sang very well this, if it's not better than Tei...)
    And so you know, of course not, killing a rival won't heal you from your pain, it will just be worse.
    Music: quite in the rock spirit this time, bass and some beats by Sytrus, lead by Harmor, and the guitar is by Toxic Biohazard (and yeah, like "Hang the Fang", I didn't choose Slayer for this one). Reminds me some old music with really good rocking guitars! (That's what I was talking about on Twitter [I indeed posted a text spoiler, not a screenshot spoiler for this one]).


  • 『Carolina』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170319-000498
    LIN (full) : 「598 583 116」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170319-000617
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Night Angels - TRACK 2/18

    Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
    Not recommended for people under... : 14
    Reason : yandere content
    Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    悲しみと涙で、まだあなたの目を深く見ていた
    幸せから遠く離れて、未来の希望を探していた
    彼を無視しようとしたが、あまりにもずっと前から苦痛が私を苦しめた
    私の意識はすでに燃えていて、もう一度会いたいと思っていた...

    あなたが私のために持っている気持ちを完全に知っていた
    恐怖と憎しみに満ちたこれらの考えは、取り除きたいと思った
    望む運命を維持するために間違いをすることはできなかった
    沈黙にとどまり、必死にこの気持ちを待っている

    悲しみと涙で、まだあなたの目を深く見ていた
    幸せから遠く離れて、未来の希望を探していた
    彼を無視しようとしたが、あまりにもずっと前から苦痛が私を苦しめた
    私の意識はすでに燃えていて、もう一度会いたいと思っていた...

    何度も何度も考えて、精神はますますぼやけている
    永遠にあなたを失う危険を負うことができなかった、何をすべきか分からなかった
    もうあなたを見ることができないことは、さらに傷ついていた
    彼があなたを私から遠ざけたいと思ったら、決して許されない

    あまりにも謝罪のために遅れて、許される必要はない
    後悔を感じることなく、犯罪性が思考を侵害する前に
    言ったことを覚えている最後の言葉は、 「殺してあげる」でした
    しかし実際に本当に伝えたい文章は「愛している」...

    Original English text

    Through the sorrow and the tears, I was still looking at you deep in the eyes
    In a distance far away from the happiness, I was searching for a hopeful future
    I tried to ignore him, but the pain was torturing me since too long ago
    My consciousness was already burning, I just wanted to see you again...

    I perfectly knew about the feelings you were going to have for me
    These thoughts full of fear and hatred, that I wanted to get rid of
    I couldn't do any mistake to maintain the fate I so desired
    Staying in the silence, desperately waiting for this feeling

    Through the sorrow and the tears, I was still looking at you deep in the eyes
    In a distance far away from the happiness, I was searching for a hopeful future
    I tried to ignore him, but the pain was torturing me since too long ago
    My consciousness was already burning, I just wanted to see you again...

    Thinking again and again, the spirit is being more and more blurry
    I didn't know what to do, I couldn't risk losing you forever
    Not being able to see you anymore was hurting even more
    If he wanted to take you away from me, I'll never forgive

    Too late for apologies, I don't have to be forgiven
    Without feeling any regret, before the culpability invades the thoughts
    The last words that I remember having said were "I'll kill you"
    But actually the sentence I really wanted to tell was "I love you"...

    And French adaptation!

    À travers les larmes et le chagrin, je continue encore de te regarder
    Dans une distance éloignée du bonheur, je cherchais un futur plein d'espoir
    J'ai tenté de l'ignorer, mais depuis trop longtemps la douleur me torturait
    Ma conscience brûlait déjà, je voulais juste te revoir...

    Je savais les sentiments que tu allais éprouver pour moi parfaitement
    Ces pensées pleines de haine et de peur, je voulais m'en débarrasser
    Je ne pouvais faire aucune erreur pour maintenir le destin que j'ai tant désiré
    En restant dans le silence, attendant ce sentiment désespérément

    À travers les larmes et le chagrin, je continue encore de te regarder
    Dans une distance éloignée du bonheur, je cherchais un futur plein d'espoir
    J'ai tenté de l'ignorer, mais depuis trop longtemps la douleur me torturait
    Ma conscience brûlait déjà, je voulais juste te revoir...

    Mon esprit devient de plus en plus flou en pensant encore et encore
    Sans savoir que faire, je ne pouvais prendre le risque de te perdre à jamais
    Ne pas pouvoir te revoir me faisait que me blesser encore
    S'il voulait t'éloigner de moi, je ne le pardonnerai jamais

    Trop tard pour les excuses, je n'ai pas à être pardonnée
    Sans sentir aucun regret, avant que la culpabilité n'envahisse mes pensées
    Les derniers mots dont je me souviens avoir dits étaient "je vais te tuer"
    Mais "je t'aime" était la phrase que je voulais dire en réalité...

    Explanations...

    I think I finally managed to do a good trance track with Tei. Also featured on Tmbox.
    Music: atmo by Toxic Biohazard, gated pad and some beats by Xpand!2, chords with T-Force Alpha Plus (long time for this one) and lead with Harmor.


  • 『Nine Lives』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170316-00497
    LIN (full) : 「598 582 230」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170318-000616
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Night Angels - TRACK 13/18

    Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
    Not recommended for people under... : -
    Reason : -
    Restricted on : (none)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    空から落ちて、幸福の断片に到達しようとした後
    希望は崩壊するだろうが、これはまだ終わりではない

    何も失っていない、まだ立っている、まだ苦労している
    できるだけ多くの時間を敗北することができます、まだ残るでしょう

    絶望と死よりも強いこの気持ちが私を守ってくれている
    完全に崩壊することはできない、心にはまだいくつかの希望があります

    空から落ちて、幸福の断片に到達しようとした後
    希望は崩壊するだろうが、これはまだ終わりではない

    あきらめることを拒否し、その後この悪夢から目を覚ますことにした
    物語は繰り返されるようだが、新しい人生から始まっている

    まず放棄されたと感じ、助けを求めて絶望的に叫びた
    それから、この強烈な悲しみを取り除くために、甘い思い出を思い出した

    あなたを忘れたくはなく、この恐ろしい痛みに苦しんでいませんでした
    必要としていたのは、幸せで十分だったということだけでした

    空から落ちて、幸福の断片に到達しようとした後
    希望は崩壊するだろうが、これはまだ終わりではない

    あきらめることを拒否し、その後この悪夢から目を覚ますことにした
    物語は繰り返されるようだが、新しい人生から始まっている

    Original English text

    Falling from the sky, after having tried to reach the fragments of happiness
    The hope was going to collapse, but this is not the end yet

    I haven't lost anything, I'm still standing, still struggling
    I can be defeated many times as possible, I'll still remain

    This feeling that is stronger than despair and death protects me
    I can't completely collapse, there is still some hope in the heart

    Falling from the sky, after having tried to reach the fragments of happiness
    The hope was going to collapse, but this is not the end yet

    I deny to give up, then decided to wake up from this nightmare
    The story seems to repeat itself but is beginning with a new life

    I first felt that I was abandoned, desperately screamed for help
    Then I remembered of the sweet memories, to get rid of this intense sadness

    I never wanted to forget you, not even suffering this horrifying pain
    Being happy and determined enough was the only thing I needed

    Falling from the sky, after having tried to reach the fragments of happiness
    The hope was going to collapse, but this is not the end yet

    I deny to give up, then decided to wake up from this nightmare
    The story seems to repeat itself but is beginning with a new life

    And French adaptation!

    Note: please use these lyrics, a part was missing in the txt files.

    Tombant du ciel, après avoir essayé d'atteindre les fragments du bonheur en vain
    L'espoir allait s'effondrer, mais ce n'est pas encore la fin

    Je n'ai rien perdu, en me battant encore, je tiendrai
    Je peux être vaincue autant de fois que possible, je resterai

    Tombant du ciel, après avoir essayé d'atteindre les fragments du bonheur en vain
    L'espoir allait s'effondrer, mais ce n'est pas encore la fin

    Ce sentiment plus fort que le désespoir ou la mort pourra me protéger
    Tant qu'il reste de l'espoir en moi, je ne pourrai m'effondrer

    Je refuse d'abandonner, de ce cauchemar j'ai voulu me réveiller
    L'histoire commence avec une nouvelle vie même si elle semble se répéter

    J'ai d'abord senti être abandonnée, j'ai demandé de l'aide en hurlant
    Puis je me suis souvenue pour me débarrasser de la tristesse, de ces doux moments

    Je n'ai jamais voulu t'oublier, ni même souffrir de cette horrible douleur
    Être heureuse et suffisamment déterminée, c'est tout ce qu'il fallait à mon cœur

    Tombant du ciel, après avoir essayé d'atteindre les fragments du bonheur en vain
    L'espoir allait s'effondrer, mais ce n'est pas encore la fin

    Je refuse d'abandonner, de ce cauchemar j'ai voulu me réveiller
    L'histoire commence avec une nouvelle vie même si elle semble se répéter

    Explanations...

    A bit late in the week, lack of inspiration plus fatigue... But here it is, finally. Good occasion for me to do an "all audiences" song for Yukari, even if I had many difficulties to write the lyrics.
    Music: pads by PoiZone and Toxic Biohazard, pluck by GMS.


  • CD12.5 - Fragile Thorn

    DOWNLOAD - 16 TRACKS - COMPLETE ALBUM

    Hello, Nynthixia there.

    This is the changelog for the album. I tried to recompose what was originally written, but there may be one or two things still missing, anyways, you know what tracks were modified. Enjoy listening to them! (^-^)

    (Note: tracks that are not written = same as demos)

    02. ALCESTIA (feat. Tohoku Zunko)
    [EXTENSION] Added two final notes at the end

    08. CALEDONE (feat. kokone)
    [EXTENSION] Extended end

    09. Mind Broken (feat. IA)
    [EXTENSION] Added one supplementary chorus
    [INSTRUMENT] Added fade-in synth at the beginning
    [INSTRUMENT] Removed some beats at group chorus 4
    [INSTRUMENT] Added synth at the first bridge
    [INSTRUMENT] Modified beats at the end

    12. ATROPINIUM (feat. Lily)
    [INSTRUMENT] Removed some beats at the end of some choruses
    [INSTRUMENT] Added SFX
    [EXTENSION] Extended end

    13. Evil Twins (feat. MAYU)
    [EXTENSION] Extended end

    15. Clemence (feat. Yuzuki Yukari)
    [EXTENSION] Extended end

     

    OK some more serious news now. Two days ago I got news about the files on the drive that got an incident at the end of February. The files will be recovered during next week, but apparently, I'll have corruption to repair, and since the production files are in the folders where the bug occured... I think it will be a mess and I'll have to repair everything. Files themselves are not affected, I'll maybe have to find what is what. It may take some time though...

    And hopefully, you were not penalized for the album, because if I knew earlier when I would get the files back... The air date would be moved to the Saturday of next week.

    I'll aware you when all the production files will be recovered, so that if you request them to me, I can give them.

    Else, still working, the next song should be for Saturday evening normally.

    Enjoy the album!

    Nynthixia


  • Hello, Nynthixia there.

    The album airing of "Fragile Thorn" will indeed be on this Saturday (March 18th), it is now fully packaged. Concerning the data recovery, it just began on today, but it will take up to one or two weeks. Don't estimate the possibility for me of getting back everything then to make the copies on the new hard drives before maybe April 1st (maximum date, after this, you can ask me any material you want!). I'll tell you anyway when the incident will be 100% over.

    Other news about the April pace. There will be a week under the tightest pace (one song a day) for the week between April 24th and April 30th included, before going back to a week with the slow pace (2/3 songs a week). After, it will be or 2/3 songs a week until mid-July, or between 3 and 6 songs a week until beginning September (excluding the weeks of August 5th/August 11th (no song airing, working offline) and August 12th/August 19th (2/3 songs a week)).

    APRIL

    April 3rd/9th ; 10th/16th ; 17th/23rd : slow pace - 2 or 3 songs a week
    April 24th/30th : tight pace - one song everyday

    MAY

    May 1st/7th : slow pace - 2 or 3 songs a week
    The rest of the month : or slow pace or medium pace (2/3 songs a week or between 3 and 6 songs a week)

    JUNE/JULY

    Same than the rest of May then between 3 and 6 songs a week

    AUGUST

    No online airing for between August 5th and August 11th included (this means I'll work offline with the offline methods)
    August 12th/19th : slow pace - 2 or 3 songs a week

    I may remind it later.

    Other schedules that are closer :

    - March 18th : album airing : "Fragile Thorn"
    - March 25th : remix of "Lience" (sele) with Lily -> Tmbox only
    - March 31st : "Collapse" with Anna Nyui -vivid- -> at least blog
     - April 15th : cover of "REJECT" (sele) with Yuzuki Yukari -> Tmbox only*
    - April 29th : album airing : "Night Angels"

    * Note : due to the instru license, alternative license system will be used.

    No other detailled air dates for other songs.

     

    Nynthixia


  • 『Black Days』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170312-00496
    LIN (full) : 「598 572 036」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170312-000615
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Night Angels - TRACK 7/18

    Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
    Not recommended for people under... : 14
    Reason : yandere content
    Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    闇に捨てられ、涙で溺れてしまった、もう何もする意欲がなかった
    人生と未来に背を向けると、この精神はどんな考えも空っぽに感じる
    全てがとても苦いので、苦痛と悲しみは終わらなければならなかった
    残酷な世界に何かを後悔することなくさよならを言う

    心が脱線するのを感じるまで、彼らを一緒に見ているだけで、病気になった
    この幸せはそんなに傷つきました、彼らが消えたかった
    泣く時間さえなかったし、ひどく歪んで現実を見ていた
    嘘と欺瞞の間に、すでに生き残るにはあまりにも多くのものを見た

    闇に捨てられ、涙で溺れてしまった、もう何もする意欲がなかった
    人生と未来に背を向けると、この精神はどんな考えも空っぽに感じる
    全てがとても苦いので、苦痛と悲しみは終わらなければならなかった
    残酷な世界に何かを後悔することなくさよならを言う

    決して終わらなかった拷問でこの深い絶望を感じていただけ
    何も痛みを和らげることはできなった、状況は私を疲れさせていた
    この腐った体から流れ出る鮮血でさえ、何も治癒しない
    この世界が暗闇の中で消えれば、結果は重要ではありません

    この人生は耐えられず、全てを忘れるようなものを探した
    これらの思い出は焼き尽くされ、それぞれの存在の断片と共に灰に変わります
    この瞬間、安心していなくても、何の理由もなく笑った
    この状況は非常に哀れであり、残念でいっぱいで、ばかげている

    この拷問が今終了することを望んだが、債券はすでに破壊されている
    血が地面に流れるまであなたは私から逃げていた
    あなたはなぜ自分の人生の遺骨を壊すように強制したの?
    彼が私からあなたを盗んだことがないなら、全てはまだうまくいくだろう

    Original English text

    Abandoned in the darkness, drowned by the tears, not motivated anymore to do anything
    Turning the back to the life and the future, this spirit feeling empty of any thoughts
    Everything tasted so bitter, the pain and the sorrow had to end
    Saying goodbye to a cruel world without regretting anything

    Just seeing them together was making me sick, until feeling the heart derail
    This happiness was hurting so much, I wanted them to disappear
    I didn't even have the time to cry, I was barely seeing the reality in the distortion
    Between the lies and the deceptions, I already saw too much things to survive

    Abandoned in the darkness, drowned by the tears, not motivated anymore to do anything
    Turning the back to the life and the future, this spirit feeling empty of any thoughts
    Everything tasted so bitter, the pain and the sorrow had to end
    Saying goodbye to a cruel world without regretting anything

    I was just feeling this deep despair in a torture that never ended
    Nothing could calm the pain down, the situation was tiring me out
    Even the fresh blood flowing from this rotten body doesn't heal anything
    The consequences won't matter, if this world vanishes in the darkness

    This life was unbearable, searching for something to forget everything
    These memories being burnt down and turned into ashes, with each fragment of existence
    At this moment I laughed without any reason, even if I wasn't relieved
    This situation is so pathetic, full of pity, becoming ridiculous

    I wanted this torture to end now, but the bonds are already destroyed
    You were running away from me, until the blood also flows on the ground
    Then why did you force myself to break the remains of my own life?
    If he never stole you from me, everything would still be fine

    And French adaptation!

    Abandonnée dans les ténèbres, noyée par les larmes, ne pouvant faire quoi que ce soit
    Tournant le dos à la vie et l'avenir, l'esprit vidé de toute pensée
    Tout avait un goût si amer, la douleur et le chagrin devaient s'arrêter
    Dire adieu à un monde cruel sans regretter quoi que ce soit

    Les voir ensemble me rendait malade, jusqu'à ce cœur aille dérailler
    Ce bonheur me faisait trop mal, je voulais les voir disparaître à jamais
    Je n'ai même pas eu le temps de pleurer, je voyais à peine dans la distorsion la réalité
    Entre mensonges et tromperies, j'avais déjà trop vu pour continuer d'exister

    Abandonnée dans les ténèbres, noyée par les larmes, ne pouvant faire quoi que ce soit
    Tournant le dos à la vie et l'avenir, l'esprit vidé de toute pensée
    Tout avait un goût si amer, la douleur et le chagrin devaient s'arrêter
    Dire adieu à un monde cruel sans regretter quoi que ce soit

    Je ressentais un intense désespoir dans une torture qui n'a jamais réellement pris fin
    Rien ne calmait ma douleur, la situation continuait de me fatiguer
    Même le sang frais coulant de ce corps pourri ne pouvait rien soigner
    Peu importe les conséquences, si ce monde s'évanouit enfin

    Cette vie était insupportable, je cherchais quelque chose pour tout oublier
    Ces souvenirs étant brûlés en cendres, avec chaque morceau de vie
    À ce moment j'ai ri sans raison, même si je ne me sentais pas soulagée
    Cette situation est si pathétique, ridicule, pleine de sympathie

    Je voulais que la torture prenne fin, mais les liens avaient déjà été détruits
    Tu t'es mise à me fuir, jusqu'à ce que le sang se soit écoulé
    Alors pourquoi m'as-tu forcée à briser ce qu'il restait de ma propre vie ?
    S'il ne t'avait jamais emmenée loin de moi, tout aurait pu encore aller

    Explanations...

    And still, I censored a few the lyrics... So I let you imagine the situation.
    Also, if I had to write a full story of this song, the age limit would be certainly higher.
    This is (maybe?) the most extreme case that can happen.
    Initially, Tei would be the one singing this, then I wrote the lyrics and... I thought it was too mature for her, so I switched "Re;Boot" and "Black Days" placeholders, so Tei could sing the first one and Lily the second one. Even if it's yandere.
    Music: all the synths were made by using Toxic Biohazard presets. And to be honest, I had many difficulties to compose it, between the settings that made the patterns sounding "off-timed"... And there is also a cho track, not only a main track for the capella.


  • 『Para-Normal』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170310-00495
    LIN (full) : 「598 570 582」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170311-000614
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Night Angels - TRACK 12/18

    Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
    Not recommended for people under... : -
    Reason : -
    Restricted on : (none)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    見えない現実は、誰もこの世界で暗闇に満ちていることにならない
    これらの魂がどのように空であるかを見るためにあなたの目を開いて
    正常を越えて、人々の目から隠された何かがまだあります
    誰かが秘密を明らかにすると、誰も信じたくない

    彼らは、私たちの目には霧があると言いる、ただの幻想です
    彼らに目に見える証拠がないなら、何も信頼できない
    彼らの精神は私たちが望むものを見るのに十分なほど開いていないからです
    代わりに、彼らは疑惑と嘘でいっぱいになっている世界にこだわっていたい

    見えない現実は、誰もこの世界で暗闇に満ちていることにならない
    これらの魂がどのように空であるかを見るためにあなたの目を開いて
    正常を越えて、人々の目から隠された何かがまだあります
    誰かが秘密を明らかにすると、誰も信じたくない

    なぜ彼らは明らかに本当のものを見ることができないの?
    私が感じることができるこの感覚、誰もそれに気付かない
    宇宙の端まで共鳴する、心の中に隠されている
    あなたは「異常」と呼んでいる世界のすばらしい知覚

    見えない現実は、誰もこの世界で暗闇に満ちていることにならない
    これらの魂がどのように空っぽであるかを見るためにあなたの目を開いて
    正常を越えて、人々の目から隠された何かがまだあります
    誰かが秘密を明らかにすると、誰も信じたくない

    Original English text

    The unseen reality that nobody will reach in this world full of darkness
    Open your eyes just to see how these souls are empty
    Beyond the normality, there is still something hidden from the people's eyes
    When someone reveals the secret, nobody wants to believe

    They say there is some mist in our eyes, that it's just some illusion
    That nothing can be trusted if they didn't have any visible proofs
    Because their spirits aren't open enough to see what we want
    Instead, they want to stay stuck in a world full of doubt and lies

    The unseen reality that nobody will reach in this world full of darkness
    Open your eyes just to see how these souls are empty
    Beyond the normality, there is still something hidden from the people's eyes
    When someone reveals the secret, nobody wants to believe

    Why can't they see the things that are obviously real?
    This sensation that I can feel, nobody else notices it
    It is hidden, deep inside the heart, resonating until the edges of the universe
    The wonderful vision of a world full of what you are calling "abnormality"

    The unseen reality that nobody will reach in this world full of darkness
    Open your eyes just to see how these souls are empty
    Beyond the normality, there is still something hidden from the people's eyes
    When someone reveals the secret, nobody wants to believe

    And French adaptation!

    La réalité non vue que personne dans ce monde de ténèbres n'atteindra
    Ouvre tes yeux pour voir ces âmes et leur vacuité
    Au-delà de la normalité, il y a quelque chose qui leur est caché
    Si quelqu'un révèle le secret, personne ne le croira

    Ils disent que nos yeux sont pleins de brouillard, que ce n'est qu'une illusion
    Que rien ne peut être cru si personne n'a quoi que ce soit pour le prouver
    Parce que leurs esprits ne sont pas assez ouverts pour voir ce que nous voulons
    Ils veulent à la place rester dans un monde que le doute et les mensonges ont créé

    La réalité non vue que personne dans ce monde de ténèbres n'atteindra
    Ouvre tes yeux pour voir ces âmes et leur vacuité
    Au-delà de la normalité, il y a quelque chose qui leur est caché
    Si quelqu'un révèle le secret, personne ne le croira

    Pourquoi ne peuvent-ils voir les choses qui sont bien la réalité ?
    Cette sensation que je peux ressentir, personne ne peut la remarquer
    Tout au fond du cœur, résonnant jusqu'aux bords de l'univers, demeurant cachée
    Cette merveilleuse vision du monde plein de ce que vous appelez "anormalité"

    La réalité non vue que personne dans ce monde de ténèbres n'atteindra
    Ouvre tes yeux pour voir ces âmes et leur vacuité
    Au-delà de la normalité, il y a quelque chose qui leur est caché
    Si quelqu'un révèle le secret, personne ne le croira

    Explanations...

    Again a trance track for CUL, but since she sings very good on this style, I don't hesitate anymore. And for the lyrics, these are not too clear, but it's mainly about the things that people don't want to see or believe "like that". It does a quite good reference to paranormal too...
    Music: pads by Toxic Biohazard, choir by DSK ChoirZ and lead by GMS.


  • Hello, Nynthixia there.

    Few days ago I posted a new where I explained the incident of data loss, which made me impossible to give to anyone many production files, such as .flp, .ust or .vsqx files.
    I'll soon get back these files, but because of the size of all the data (yes, it's that huge), I think it won't be before at least 2 weeks. So, wait and see, and I'll tell you when all the files will be recovered. When it will be done, I'll be able to give back these files again if you request them.

    For the moment, the requests of getting the project data are not allowed for :
    - S01 ust files
    - all S02 ust, vsqx and flp files
    - all S03 .flp files until "Eve" not included
    - all S03 .ust files until "Laura" included except for "White Dress" (got a copy from another computer when I made the VCV test)
    - all S03 .vsqx files until "Eve" included

    For all songs since "ANGELICIA", the requests are allowed because I can give the files (there are private saves elsewhere than on the main computer and the main disk).

     

    So, what everything there does for the March album?

    I had 3 choices depending of the date I could recover the data:

    - Or I got everything back before March 16th and everything happens normally. This is the case that is the less likely to happen.
    - Or I got everything back before March 24th. The air date of the album would be moved to March 25th (still on a Saturday, because in schedules, it's better to organize for me). Limited probability to happen since the amount of data to recover is very very huge...
    - Or I got everything way after these dates and in this case, the air date of the album would not move (still on March 18th) but I would do again a booklet.

    And considering the situation, the third case is the most likely to happen. No worries, the album tracks were all saved on another storage (else I would cancel the album or report it to another month, and that would be very annoying), the certificate has already been uploaded to the drive (where the little link in the .zip description points out) and the booklet is the only thing remaining to do (again!) at this point...

     

    Other new, concerning the remix. This will finally be a remix of "Lience" with Lily. It will be featured on Tmbox only. No material will be on piapro! Air date: maybe April 24th or 25th in public. (Yes, that late, even if I didn't stop working on it the whole week!)
    As for the April plan, if you know me quite well... Cover of "REJECT", and there are many chances I use Yukari for this one (no way I would do IA again, plus, to be honest, I really prefered Lily's version). No exact air date.

     

    That's all for the moment, the next song you'll get is "Para-Normal", but since I worked on the remix a big part of the week, I was a bit slowed down on it... No worries, I don't think you'll wait too long either. (^-^)

    Nynthixia

     

    EDIT March 11th 00:50 (Paris time) : "Re;Boot" will be performed by Tei and "Black Days" by Lily. Updated the tracklist on the discography page.


  • 『Spinning World』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170304-00493
    LIN (full) : 「598 563 894」
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170305-000612
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Night Angels - TRACK 4/18

    Rating : Approved for all audiences - A
    Not recommended for people under... : -
    Reason : -
    Restricted on : (none)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    世界の霊は出口がない混乱の中で立ち往生している
    誰も彼らが助けを求めている間に、何が起こっているかを知らない

    この宇宙からの残虐な社会災害についての苦情
    誰かが今何を感じているのか、何が起こっているのか教えてもらえるの?

    何かを予測することはできない、回転する世界が存続する限り
    変化は見えないほど速く、誰も気づくことさえできない
    人類のさまざまな顔がこの世界のように回転している
    誰も誰も信じることができない、約束は全て破られている

    誰もが無意識と疑問でいっぱいの思考で失われている
    同じ質問をして、間違った答えを繰り返すこと

    この宇宙からの残虐な社会災害についての苦情
    誰かが今何を感じているのか、何が起こっているのか教えてもらえるの?

    何かを予測することはできない、回転する世界が存続する限り
    変化は見えないほど速く、誰も気づくことさえできない
    人類のさまざまな顔がこの世界のように回転している
    誰も誰も信じることができない、約束は全て破られている

    Original English text

    The spirits of the world are stuck in a mess that has no exit
    Nobody knows what is going on, while they're seeking for help

    The complaints about a society disaster, the cruelty coming from this universe
    Can someone tell me what is going on what are they all feeling now?

    I can't predict anything, as long the spinning world will subsist
    The changes are too fast to be seen, and anyone can't even notice anything
    The different faces of the humanity are spinning like this world
    Nobody can't trust anyone, the promises are all broken

    While everyone is lost in their thoughts full of incomprehension and doubt
    Wondering the same questions and repeating wrong answers

    The complaints about a society disaster, the cruelty coming from this universe
    Can someone tell me what is going on what are they all feeling now?

    I can't predict anything, as long the spinning world will subsist
    The changes are too fast to be seen, and anyone can't even notice anything
    The different faces of the humanity are spinning like this world
    Nobody can't trust anyone, the promises are all broken

    And French adaptation!

    Les esprits du monde coincés dans un bazar sans sortie
    Ils appellent à l'aide, mais personne ne sait ce qui se passe ici

    Les plaintes d'un désastre social, de cet univers dont émane la cruauté
    Que se passe-t-il, que pensent-ils tous, pouvez-vous me le dire s'il vous plaît ?

    Je ne peux rien prédire, dans le monde tournant continuera d'exister
    Les changes sont trop soudain pour être vues, et personne ne peut rien remarquer
    Les différents visages de l'humanité comme ce monde sont en train de tourner
    Personne ne peut croire en personne, les promesses sont toutes brisées

    Pendant que tout le monde est perdu dans le doute, l'incompréhension envahissant leurs pensées
    En se posant les mêmes questions et répétant des réponses erronées

    Les plaintes d'un désastre social, de cet univers dont émane la cruauté
    Que se passe-t-il, que pensent-ils tous, pouvez-vous me le dire s'il vous plaît ?

    Je ne peux rien prédire, dans le monde tournant continuera d'exister
    Les changes sont trop soudain pour être vues, et personne ne peut rien remarquer
    Les différents visages de l'humanité comme ce monde sont en train de tourner
    Personne ne peut croire en personne, les promesses sont toutes brisées

    Explanations...

    Everything changes. Everything spins. A sort of "they never stay on their thoughts".
    Music: coupled lead with GMS and Toxic Biohazard (also used this last one for the rythm pad), gated pad with FireBird and ending arp with Sytrus.


  • 『Rachel』

    Music, lyrics : NynthixiaP
    Rearrangement : iZotope Nectar Elements, ExpressFX
    Tracks mixing : Vegas Pro 14
    Synthesizer : FL Studio 12
    LIC (instru) : 12FR-170302-00492
    LIN (full) : 「598 562 004」 [Lily ver] / 「598 562 006」 [IA ver]
    IMIC (full) : 12FR-NYN8937-170303-000610 [Lily ver] / 12FR-170303-000611 [IA ver, air date: Mar 4th]
    Instrumental + sung version
    Catalog ticket
    Album : Night Angels - TRACK 8/18 (Lily) 18/18 (IA)

    Rating : Mature (second class) - M14
    Not recommended for people under... : 14
    Reason : yandere content
    Restricted on : piapro (forbidden)

    This file is registered under Specific Copyleft Attribution Non Commercial Share-Alike 17.0 license. 

    PlayDB entry

    Japanese lyrics

    暗闇の中を歩いて、どのような場所に到達するかわからずに
    同じ痛みを感じるたびに、燃えている空気を呼吸していた
    後悔することがたくさんあるので、許されないことを知っている
    ささやきや思考が強すぎて、戦うことができない

    錯覚、間違った歪んだ現実、誤解の中で立ち往生した
    このような残念な決定をしても、まだ何も感じていない
    私の希望と未来は崩壊しており、それについては何もできないでした
    この悪夢を止めたかったが、それはすでに遅すぎた

    暗闇の中を歩いて、どのような場所に到達するかわからずに
    同じ痛みを感じるたびに、燃えている空気を呼吸していた
    後悔することがたくさんあるので、許されないことを知っている
    ささやきや思考が強すぎて、戦うことができない

    彼があなたと一緒にいる間、まだ隠されて暗闇の中で失われた
    幸福に到達しようとしたが、断片を把握することはできないでした
    彼があなたを私から遠ざけると思った、とても恐れていた
    この夢のような未来を災害に変えさせたくありませんでした

    あなたが私に怒っていると理解している、絶望は私たちを永遠に分けた
    その幻想は壊れていて、破壊された記憶の後ろには苦味が残っていた
    もう何も信頼することはできない、世界は嘘と欺瞞でいっぱいです
    なぜこれら全ての希望を台無しにした人をまだ保護していたの?

    Original English text

    Walking in the darkness, without knowing what sort of place I would reach
    Every time I was feeling the same pain, I was breathing a burning air
    I have so many things to regret, I know that I can't be forgiven
    The whispers and the thoughts are too strong to be fought against

    I was stuck into an illusion, a mistaken and distorted reality, in a misunderstanding
    Even by taking these regretful decisions, I still haven't felt anything
    My hopes and future were collapsing, nothing could be done about it
    I wanted this nightmare to stop, but it was already too late

    Walking in the darkness, without knowing what sort of place I would reach
    Every time I was feeling the same pain, I was breathing a burning air
    I have so many things to regret, I know that I can't be forgiven
    The whispers and the thoughts are too strong to be fought against

    As long he was with you, I was still going to be hidden and lost in the darkness
    I tried to reach the happiness, without being able to grasp even a fragment it
    I thought he would get you away from me, I was so afraid
    I didn't want to let this dreamy future turn into a disaster

    I understand if you are mad at me, despair has separated us forever
    The illusion was shattering, only leaving bitterness behind destroyed memories
    I can't trust anything anymore, the world is filled with lies and deceptions
    Why were you still protecting the person who ruined all these hopes?

    And French adaptation!

    Marchant dans l'obscurité, sans savoir à quel genre d'endroit j'arriverais
    Chaque fois que je ressentais cette même douleur, respirant un air brûlant
    J'ai tant de choses à regretter, je sais que je ne pourrai être pardonnée
    Les chuchotements et les pensées étaient trop fortes pour les combattre maintenant

    J'étais coincée dans une illusion, malentendu, une réalité déformée et erronée
    Même en prenant ces regrettables décisions, je ne pouvais rien ressentir
    Je ne pouvais rien faire hormis voir s'effondrer mes espoirs et mon avenir
    Il était déjà trop tard pour vouloir que ce cauchemar puisse s'arrêter

    Marchant dans l'obscurité, sans savoir à quel genre d'endroit j'arriverais
    Chaque fois que je ressentais cette même douleur, respirant un air brûlant
    J'ai tant de choses à regretter, je sais que je ne pourrai être pardonnée
    Les chuchotements et les pensées étaient trop fortes pour les combattre maintenant

    Tant qu'il était avec toi, j'allais rester cachée et perdue dans l'obscurité
    J'ai essayé d'atteindre le bonheur, sans même pouvoir en saisir un fragment
    J'ai pensé qu'il tentait de t'éloigner de moi, j'étais tellement effrayée
    Je ne voulais pas laisser ce futur de rêve être dévasté cependant

    Je comprends si tu m'en veux, le désespoir nous a à jamais séparées
    L'illusion s'est brisée, ne laissant que l'amertume derrière nos souvenirs brisés
    Je ne peux plus croire en rien, le monde est rempli de mensonges et tromperies
    Pourquoi protégeais-tu encore la personne qui a voulu ruiner nos vies ?

    Explanations...

    Version with IA -ROCKS- on tomorrow if everything happens as expected.
    Story: about a girl who thought that the boy being with her lover was a rival, when he actually was her lover's brother. A bit paranoid, but even if someone gets close to the person a yandere loves... This is often the bad ending if you see what I mean. In a nutshell: it all began because of a big misunderstanding...
    Music: pad by Toxic Biohazard, leads by PoiZone, gated pad by FireBird, chord pad by Xpand!2.


  • Hello, Nynthixia there.

    Coming back with further news for the work pace on the Apr 10th-Apr 16h. As I thought, it will be indeed the slow pace. The reason is that I won't be at home and I'll lose many potential time of working in front of the computer, so a slow song production as currently.

    But if I came here, it's also because I had a serious incident with my files, including the production ones. The hard drive on which these files were saved doesn't work correctly anymore. However, the data isn't completely lost, especially because the problem seems to come from a numeric bug. The drive itself works, but the files aren't well recognized in other words. Since Thursday evening I'm struggling to get back these files.

    What does that mean?

    - Impossible to give you the material files for all S02+S03 songs and until "Eve" included (I can give the .flp file for this one, but not the .vsqx). Impossible to give you the other .ust/.vsqx files produced until last Thursday.
    - The album tracks for March are not lost, however, I have to redo the booklet and save back the jacket picture. If I don't get back the files before the 17th, I'll do again this booklet quickly, package everything and send all of this on fichier-zip.
    - Due to this incident, I changed my way to upload. Now, a little .zip file containing the .flp projects (without any sample though, they're not saved at the same place) and or the .ust or the .vsqx, will be sent on fichier-zip in "not repertoried" status. I can get back the links with my own mail, and if needed, can give you this link if you ask for it (for remixes and covers).

    And if it doesn't happen correctly, I'll maybe change the air date of the March album to set it at the very end of this month.

    That's why, for the moment, I ask you to not request any material until I recovered these files, because in any way, I would not be able to give them to you.

    How many time it will take? Maybe until the end of this week, maybe until the end of the next week? I don't even know myself sadly...

     

    I'm horribly sorry for what is going on... But, hey, good new, none of my licenses were in danger! So production is not suspended. I still have all the plugins that I need for production, all their licenses are active (they are on the computer itself)!
    So, wait and see?

    Nynthixia






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